Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?
This is a challenging question for me.
I’ve come to terms with the fact that my past haunts me wherever I go, and it causes me so much pain. Simultaneously, I’ve understood that my future is mine to shape and mold as I wish. There’s no need to let my bygone days reign over me.
The experiences I’ve had in the past have left me in a dark place. Time literally stopped for me in 2018 during a horrible experience. Imagine being frozen in place while watching everyone else around you move on obliviously.
To this day, I still relive that moment, and it hurts everyone around me as much as it hurts me. Whenever I try to voice it, no one hears me. It’s easier for everyone if I remain silent.
However, I developed new strength in the struggles; it has given me a new perspective on the future. I’ve learned that I cannot let my past define me, though it’s easier said than done.
My husband encourages me that every day I have a choice to move forward. Whatever happened in the past has happened. There’s no way to change that. On the other hand, I have the ability to change my life and pursue a future that I want.
Now, I try not to let my past get the best of me (though some days it does, and those days are the hardest). I cannot predict the future, but I know I want to be in a better place than last year. And I will strive towards it every day.
Shout out to all those who are struggling silently! I salute you for triumphing over the difficulties you encountered to reach your position today. And I hope that you found peace. If not, I pray that you find your peace soon and have the strength to overcome your struggles.
I am confident that all your hard work and endeavors will come to fruition, and the challenges you faced only made you stronger.
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